I'm so WEAK!

Well, yesterday I wrote a post stating I will try as long as I can to not masturbate. And I am writing to let you all know I failed miserably. It hasn't even been 24 hours since i wrote the post. I couldn't wait any longer. I can't wait to get laid. A vibrator can only do so much. I'm so weak. Going to bed.

Looking for toys

I'm looking to buy a new vibrator. Two of my favorite vibrators died. I wonder if its because I use them so much. I like the bullet and the G-spot vibrator.  I'm also looking for a great clit stimulator a guy can put on his tongue/ mouth. Just the thought of it gets me excited. *Must shop for toys NOW*


ETA: I'm going to see how long I can go without masturbating starting TODAY. Even though I haven't masturbated for the past week (I think) I'll start the countdown now. As I'm typing this I'm rubbing my "kitty". Fml!

Jim Carrey is HOT

I'm watching Bruce Almighty and I find Jim Carrey kind of sexy. He's tall and lean. And he looks like he has a big dick. He kind of reminds me of this guy I used to sleep with. This guy was cool and BIG and I love how he ate my pussy. Damn, I'm so horny.

So far so good.

I've been chatting with a couple of guys lately and so far I am in lust with one. He's a cool guy that has somehow kept me interested. He loves to talk dirty, as do I, but he's not "pulling the trigger" when it comes to actually meeting me. We've met via online dating and it kind of sucks because I don't know what he looks like, besides the pic he sent, and he doesn't know what I look like.
I would give him hints and not surprisingly, men can't take a hint. "Ask me out!" All this dirty talk is getting both of us nowhere. The sooner you meet me, the sooner we can have a couple of dates under our belt and we can fuck.
Stupid ass men.

Don't waste my fucking time

To all the douchebags out there that can't take hint. I am not interested in you if you're only interested in fucking. Hire a fucking hooker. If you're not willing to spend time and money on me then dont waste my time. I'm a classy bitch and deserve to be treated that way.


I had to block a guy today, on Yahoo messenger, because he wanted some "chocolate pussy". And he did not once say he wanted to take me out and wine and dine me. You think you can fuck me and not work hard for it? Fuck you DOUCHEBAG!!!!!

Can't wait for Saturday

I'm going out with some girlfriends on Saturday and I cant wait. I need to relieve some "tension". I hope I get lucky and meet a cool guy (or two). Just want to have fun. No sex. But I don't mind being manhandled.  I already have my outfit in my head. Oh shoot, I gotta get my hair done. Ugh, I'll go that morning. But then again I can do that another time. My hair is fine. ;-)

Kelis- Acapella

I'm glad Kelis is back. I love her.

Back in the game

These guys are ridiculous and interesting at the same time. I'm back in the dating game and I am very optimistic I'll find the right guy to love me, spoil me, fuck me, and keep me satisfied. But in the meantime I'm enjoying the cat and mouse games.

"I did it all for the Nook e-reader"

I have my eyes set on getting the Barnes & Noble Nook e-reader. I always wanted to buy a "portable" book reader and now I think I found the right one. Yeah, Amazon has The Kindle and Sony has The Reader but there's something about The Nook I like. Besides its the latest "reader" out there so its probably has more bells and whistles. It would be nice to get this as a gift. ;-)

Hot for (yoga) teacher

All day I have been having thoughts about fucking my yoga instructor. I dont know if he feels the same way about me. But whenever I see him he goes out of his way to say "hi", even when he's having a convo with someone else. Idk. I also love when he gets into his yoga poses. For some reason, men who do yoga just look like they can fuck, i.e. Ryan Kwanten from True Blood. He's so HOT!




 I can't wait for my next yoga class so I can see "Smiley". ;-)

Museum of Sex

I'm thinking about going to the Museum of Sex. I want to be visually stimulated. Don't get me wrong, I do get "stimulated" while I'm at work all the time. There are a lot of delicious-looking men, especially in nicely tailored suits, that I see everyday at work. But I can't touch them. I want to go to the MOS and I hope to rub a penis or something.

P.S. I dont care what that sign says. ;-)

Bored and wants more

I want to have fun. I want to live life. I want to meet a man that enjoys life, loves trying new things and knows how to treat a woman. Oh, I almost forgot the most important thing. He must know how to work "it" and loves using his tongue. ;-). And believe me, I wouldn't mind returning the favor.

I'm open to trying a new type of relationship. As I stated before, I want to try "interracial dating". I want to expand my options and try new things. I don't discriminate. Just looking for the right guy. Are you the one?

I know you want me

I think my ex-bf's close friend either likes me or is sexually attracted to me. Basically since I've been with my bf (now ex) I always had a gut feeling that this particular friend wanted to fuck me. He has a gf and all but u know how guys are. But I would never go there with him bc I dont do friends of former lovers/bfs. No way. I rather they use their imagination. 
Like today, I bbm'ed him about random stuff and he said (rather typed) something along the lines of "eating me out" but not actually using those words. I dont want to say exactly what he said bc maybe one day he stumbles upon this blog and reads it. Who knows? But he'll know I was talking about him. 
Anyways, his statement caught me off guard bc anyone would have taken it as being sexual. We are very competitive with each other and rather than him say "Can't wait to beat you", he said something else. And no he didnt say "...eat you". He just used different words but basically same meaning. I just found it odd.  Am I reaching? Idk. But God knows I would love to be someone's snack. Mmmmm. 
This friend is cute but would I date him...Yes. If he wasn't my ex's friend, would I sleep with him...Yes. Is he bf material...No. 
And NO, its not worth going there. There's more men out there I can play with. ;-)

Can't wait for the REAL thing

I just masturbated with my trusty bullet vibrator and I just kept thinking how I can't wait for the real moment when I cum during intercourse. I can just imagine it to be so intense and worthwhile. Hmmm. One day my Prince will come and he will satisfy my every need. ;-)

Haven't had an Orgasm...

during sexual intercourse, that is. I know, its a shame. I can't wait for the moment when I do have one. I know it's going to be AMAZING, (well at least I hope). I hear some women even experience "multiple orgasms". Lucky for them, but for now I just want to have at least one orgasm. I'll worry about the other stuff later. *giggles*





ETA: When I googled "orgasm" I came across this online game. It's ok. So far I'm having trouble making "Ashley" cum. I suck. ;-)

In the mood for some "Caramel Flava".

I was working yesterday and I saw this girl reading from a book called "Caramel Flava" by Zane. Now, I'm a big fan of her books, especially Sex Chronicles 1, and if "Caramel Flava" is as good and S.C. then I will be buying a copy. I really need a good "release" and to do that my imagination needs to run WILD. Can't wait.

Fed Up!!!!

I'm getting really fed up with my ex-bf. He's a tool and I cant take it anymore. I dont like when men mistreat you when you're with them and the moment you leave the relationship, they want you back. I'm not interested. I want his ass to move on and find someone else. Seriously! I'm sure he can find another chick that can give you a fantastic blowjob. LOL!

Need a bigger bra

I'm wearing a size D bra and its so tight in the cup area that my cups are "runneth over". I may be a double D. Will buy some new bras this weekend.

Lady Gaga's "Bad Romance"

I saw this video, twice within 15 minutes, and just had to share. This video is AMAZING and Lady Gaga is HOT! Check out the new Alexander McQueen shoes at the 3:28 mark. Stunning.

Why I chose this painting?

I chose this painting because not only did it speak to me, it also represents who I am and my blog. I am willing to "bare all" of my thoughts, wants, needs, etc but am not fully ready to show the world who I am. I will change my profile pic, from time to time, but for now this painting is "me".

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Wants to get down with the "SWIRL"

For my readers who may not know, I'm a black female (not US born) and have been dating black men basically all my life. However, lately I have grown more attracted to white, hispanic and Asian men. Idk why but I am. I guess I'm ready for something new. I want to get down with the "swirl". I haven't had any issues with black men but just need a break from them. I want to try all "flavors in the skittles bag". *giggles* Don't get me wrong, if a beautiful (inside and out) black man attracts my attention, It's On!, but in the meantime I will be openminded.

This would be a great gift

I wish I knew someone that could buy me a pair of these sexy Christian Louboutin Maggie 140 pumps. They retail for $930. Oh, I so wish I had a sugar daddy. *giggles* I love me some Posh Spice and her husband. Mmmmm




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Am I bicurious?

For the past few years, I have thoughts of being with a woman. I still love my men but I sometimes think about being with a woman. I'm not sure if I'm just curious or really have a "taste" for them. Before I took my "cat nap" yesterday, I browsed through XTube videos and came across this one and all I got to say is its one of the best oral sex videos I've ever seen. I'm not sure if it was a turn on because it involved two women or because her "head" game was on point. Idk. All I can say is a lot of men who are unsure on how to pleasure a woman, need to look at this video. OMG! I mean look at that girl's face.

Still feeling tired

Idk why I woke up so early this morning. I woke up before 7am and I still feel tired. I also notice that when I'm tired the last thing I want to think about is sex. I just ate a bowl of cereal and relaxing in bed so I hope I get some energy before I go to work. 

I'm back!

I woke up about an hour ago from my "cat nap" and I'm glad I rested. My body needed it. Unfortunately, my attempt at trying to cum FAILED. I tried a new rabbit style vibrator and on top of that I was really tired, so I fell asleep while masturbating. I came a little but didn't moan or anything. It basically sucked.
I need to go to my favorite sex toy website and buy some new vibrators, preferably the bullet. It always works well for me. I also like the Wild G-Spot Vibrator (pictured below). Plus, I need to use my BestBuy gift card ASAP and buy some strong batteries.

I made a boo boo.

I somehow ruined my first blog post. I did something with the font color/background but I am too tired to fix it. I'm going to take a "cat nap" but first will masturbate. I want my "cat nap" to be good. See you in a couple of hours.

Sex Rehab w/ Dr. Drew

I'm watching this show and everyone on this show, besides Dr. Drew, looks a MESS. Just being in the same room with these people would turn me off sex too. Good job Dr. Drew. This looks like its going to be a success.

I keep looking at those "prints".

Maybe some women know what I'm talking about. The "print" is the area in a guy's pants/short/slacks or what-have-you that bulges out. Yes, I call it a "print" but some may call it a "bulge".


I noticed that within the last few years, I stare at that region a lot. Some guys have a nice "print" and others barely have anything. I hope for them there's actually something there. Anyways, I wonder if I'm the only one?

PS- The guy in the above pic has a decent "print".

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I need a Sugar Daddy

I have this job where I walk and stand a lot, and after work, I feel very tired. It's not a bad gig but I really wish I was either rich or had a sugar daddy. But even if I had a sugar daddy, I probably wont quit because I work for a great company. Who knows how long a sugar daddy's money lasts? LOL

PS- I do NOT work in the adult industry.

The Dry Spell is HELL

I haven't had sex in months and I'm so sexually frustrated. I masturbate every chance I get and it kind of sucks. I need a MAN. I miss getting ate out and sucking dick.  Even while working, my sexual desires try to take over. But I do have control.
I'm not a one-night stand type of girl but I am impatiently waiting for the right guy to fuck me.

Hey Guys!!!

Welcome to LuvitorLeavit. This is my personal blog. I've always wanted a blog where I can be "anonymous" and post my innermost private thoughts. From the outside, I am what most people consider a "good girl". I stay out of trouble, am somewhat shy, and I tend to live my life "within the lines". But with this new blog, I can be FREE to be ME. 

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