Yes... It's still a NO!

Ok, so I had my second date with "Doc" aka the old man and he was hoping that he would change my mind about being his "girlfriend" but the answer was still the same. He has a nice personality but I really can't see myself at all with him. Ewww! I wouldnt kiss him with my worse enemies lips. He's so not attractive. Sorry I dont mean to sound harsh but its the honest truth. All in all he says he really enjoys my company and I think we are going to keep in touch. In the meantime, I'm still on a mission of looking for an SD. Wish me luck!

P.S.- Looking for an SD is tough. I've met a few guys here and there but nothing materialized. I'm patient for the right one.

Lord, what have I done...

to deserve this. I had my lunch date yesterday and OMG!!! I now realize men lie on their ads. This physician aka "Doc" was old as hell and he didn't look like he described. He said he was in his 50s. No effing way. He looked like he was pushing 70. Then he was really short, sported a toupee, and was not as "physically fit" as he said he was. He's in la la land. He has a nice personality but throughout lunch I just kept thinking to myself, "I cant do this." I can't see myself even kissing him on the cheek let alone having sex with him.
Oh, what have I done to deserve this Lord? Why me? Omg! And this guy also told me he has stamina. Ewww. No, no, no. He text me after lunch asking to see me again and I told him basically how I felt but in a nice way. Will keep you posted but there's no way I'm going to have sex with him. I don't care if he buys me a Rolex watch, Chanel bag, and a car. No SEX. Well, maybe a kiss. LOL

So busy

I have been really busy lately but I'm fine. I have a date set up this week and trying not to think too much of it. According to him, he's a successful physician and is looking for a nice girl to respect his privacy etc. He's very mature in age but its ok. I just hope he looks good. He saw my pic and really liked what he saw. I'm just going to have low expectations and see where it goes. I'm tired of playing games so will take things one day at a time.

FYI: I had more luck meeting men on non-SD sites.

Missed Opportunity

I am so upset that I didnt buy the Alexander Wang Lara combat boots when I had the chance. When they came out I couldnt afford them but still should have charged it on my credit card. Ugh, they look so HOT!!!

(girl on right is wearing them)

Now they are hard to find. Oh, please if there is a GOD, please have these shoes, in my size, on my front door step.




Or at least have them on sale somewhere. I contacted Alexander Wang customer service and they said I should try Ebay. Welp, no luck there either. It's ok. :-(

Ok, dont get it

I don't understand some men. If you're not willing to meet me where I am or at least halfway, then I'm not interested. Why should I waste my time traveling more than 30 minutes to see you? Sorry. When you gain a brain cell and realize I'm worth the trip then call me. Thanks :-)

Not sure what to do

I am thinking about getting rid of "Genius". I want to get rid of him because the relationship is not "mutually beneficial". He's enjoying me but I'm not enjoying him. He emailed me last night saying how he was thinking about me and enjoyed... but I didnt respond. I'm kind of tired of not benefiting from this "arrangement". He's self employed but with the economy his clients are filing bankruptcy so funds are tight for him. No problem, sh** happens. Even though I'm not really looking for a SD/SB relationship with him I'd rather for him to satisfy me in bed.


We haven't have sex yet but the foreplay/fooling around is not good. I would go in detail but dont want to remind myself of the details. All in all, I will talk to him eventually but this time I'm going to be firm and speak my mind and yet be considerate of his feelings. I enjoy his company but I can't be the one making him "explode" all the time and after you leave I have to pull out Mr. Vibey. That sucks.

Thank You!

Thank you to my new followers. Even though there not many of you I really appreciate the support. I hope you enjoy my blog and there are more followers to come :-).

I hope he knows the deal

Ok, so I met a pot SD yesterday in NYC. We met at the UWS and he looked like his pic (which was good). He's kinda cute lol. He's of Italian decent but is not really Italian because he wasn't born there nor speaks the language. He was wearing a business suit and just got off from work.  We were walking through Central Park and had a great conversation about our hobbies, ourselves, etc. It was nice. Then I walked with him to his apartment because he had to get ready for dinner w/ friends so I figured why not.

He lives in a really nice apartment building in a great neighborhood in the UWS. He has a nice, cozy apartment with a great view. I was impressed. The building had all the amenities you can ask for. I can tell he really likes me. He was all over me. He said he likes my look, my body, my smile etc. He said he definitely wants to see me again. We shall see. But for some reason I think he wants a relationship. Idk I just get this feeling. Since we met on an SD site I really want to find an SD. Only time will tell.  Will keep you posted.

Why Cry Over Spilled Milk?

I'm a little upset with "Genius". He cancelled our date for today. He was held up because of business. However, he wants to see me tomorrow but I told him, "No, I have plans". I'm not going to reschedule my plans for anyone anymore. I also have plans to see a "few good men" in the next few days so I really could care less about "Genius".  I'm going to keep moving forward. When "Genius" learns his lesson and emails me again, I may give him another chance.

Proof is in the (Chocolate) PUDDING

I am now convinced that some (if not most) white men are into black women. I have been on this AM site not even a week and I have over 200 email messages. About 150 of these messages I got after two days on the site. And 99% of the men are Caucasian. Now like I said before I have a taste for white men so I dont mind it at all but I'm sure these same men are married to white women. I mean its their preference. But are black women only good enough for sex? That is the question.

Ok, so far so good.

I'm going to meet my usual "friend" this week. He's kind of like an SD but not really. He's the one I mentioned before that had degrees out his a** and businesses. I'll call him "Genius". Well I say he is sorta an SD because I never came out my wallet for anything when I'm with him. He's really sweet and he's ambitious. I'm still working with him on getting gifts etc. I know he's going through some things with his clients so I'm just being patient. In the meantime, I enjoy having oral sex with him. Hey, I gotta get pleasure some way.
I also have an "appointment" with this guy I met on one of the dating sites. He's shown interest in me and he's cute also. The only thing is he's "attached" lol. Do I really care? Not really. He's married, I'm not. He's cute and I'm going to see him next week. If there's chemistry and since he's married, I'm going to convince him to pay for some "maintenance" fees for me. That's the least he can do. Once I meet him, I'll think of a nickname for him.
Oh, I almost forgot. I have a lunch date with another "attached" man this weekend. He kind of reminds me of Billy Crystal so that's what I'm gonna call him. He's ok in the looks department but if he's willing to spend some "green" on me then I'm sure he's going to look better :-).

Round 2

I think I'm going to "please" myself again tonight b4 going to bed. This will be the second time today. Huh? I'm horny as f*** and still no action. Everything happens at its right time I guess. In the meantime, ttyl. :-)

The Girlfriend Experience

I just finished watching the movie, "The Girlfriend Experience" and I liked it.


I saved it on my dvr so I could watch it again. The star, Sasha Grey, is beautiful. I looked her up and she's a pornstar. Can't believe it. I wish her luck in her endeavors.


I'm not sure if this movie is a great depiction of the life of an escort but its a good movie nonetheless.

The Nerve of these "MEN"

I put "Men" in quotation marks because there are a lot of men, especially most white men, who would love to f*** a black woman in the dark but seldom walk with them in the light. I am on a few dating sites now and I get most requests from married men looking for a "discreet encounter" but I dont get much single white men wanting to date me. The nerve of them. It takes a REAL MAN to date whomever he wants and is proud of his woman....whether she's black, white or green.

Gotta focus on ME

I'm going to get back to my yoga regime either tomorrow or Monday. I got to really focus. My scale is slowly creeping up and I refuse to go backwards in my weight loss. I'm not worried. I have some potential SDs in the very near future and I know I must beat the competition. I just hope everything works out. Wish me luck.

Yup, still awake

Still haven't slept but planning onto soon. Have been getting too many emails. I've been busy little bee. Now looking at a couple of raunchy videos then gonna pull out Dr. Feel Good lol. ttyl :-)

Plan averted

Was about to "hit the hay" til I got a message from one of my SD sites. This guy shows interests but idk. I don't get excited anymore. We'll see what happens. The other pot SD I met in Tribeca hasn't called back. He's probably not interested and honestly idk why. But he did seem a bit... i can't put my finger on it but he did have a beautiful condo. OMG! If he contacts me, then I'll give him a chance. If not then it probably wasnt meant to be.

Feeling tired and...

...about to use my vibrator so I can have a nice nap lol. I was almost done w/ online dating but so far things are looking up. I also joined AM and I have gotten a lot of emails of men wanting to meet me. That's good. They may not be SD material but at the end of the day, I just want to have sex. And it's so hard to find the right one to have sex with. OMG!!!! And yes, my married friend is very persistent with wanting to have sex with me. I'm flattered but I work with him. I don't want to mix business with pleasure. I'm gonna call him Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde because he's conflicted between wanting to have an extramarital affair and his religion. I'm not into confused men lol.  Anyways, he's cute and all but something is telling me not to mess with him. Anyways, Good Afternoon All. I am about to get busy and go to sleep :-).

Ok...I'm done.

I went out 2nite and it was a wash. I didnt have any fun and I'm very disappointed with the quality of women the men were going after. I was also appalled and disgusted by the quality of men the women were going after. Ummm....I think I'm done searching for men. I am a very beautiful girl, educated and very good in the bedroom but for some reason I can't find a man that can satisfy my needs. I'm just gonna focus on myself and see what happens. Ugh!!!!!

Should I or should I not?

I'm still debating on whether or not I should become a member of a couple of these SD sites. We'll see what happens after I attend the SD party in NYC next week. If everything goes well and I meet a few SDs then I wont. But if it's a slow night then I'll probably join. 

SSDD

I'm HORNY!!!!!!


The End

LOL

I think I can get used to this.

I am slowly morphing into a SB (sugar baby) and I kind of like it. I have been taking care of myself and I've noticed a lot of men, mostly white, have paid me a lot of attention. I met a man online and the same night (or shall I saw the very early morn) he wanted me to come over and meet him in NYC. He lives in a very trendy (and expensive) neighborhood in NYC.
At first I was a little apprehensive in meeting him because we barely chatted online but something in my gut just told me to "go for it". And I did. The night started off rough (rather not say but it's not what you think lol) and everything turned out well. He was really nice, handsome, and his condo was AMAZING!!! I felt good. We didn't discuss any "sugar" business but if he showed interest in getting to know me down the line, I would be happy to spend some time with him.
Anyways, he did pay for my car service to and from NYC, which was nice. Let's see what happens from here on out. Not sure if he's interested or not. Couldn't really read him. But if I have to bet on it I would say he is because he thought I was beautiful and he enjoyed my company. Well idk.  Will give him a nickname if he contacts me again.  Anyways, we'll keep you posted.