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Sorry for taking so long to update my blog. Been doing a lot of things...good things :-). Anyways, I am so done with the SD search. It never worked out and I believe its in good reason because I think I found me a good MAN. Hallelujah!!!! I am happy right now. I hope things continue to go as they are. I pray all my readers are enjoying their journeys. I will still blog, hopefully more often though. Right now, I'm HAPPY.

:-)

Right now, I'm in a good place. Enjoying life, dating, and even through the tough times I always try to keep a smile on my face. I'm in a happy place.

Fuck 90 days...

...unless you're seeking a serious relationship. But right now I'm not. I'm referring to Steve Harvey's book "Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man". Now I haven't read his book, yet, but I remember when he was on Oprah talking about giving a man 90 days until you have sex with him. Ummm, no Mr. Harvey...not I.

If I meet a guy and we click and he's attractive, and everything is all good and dandy then you best believe we are going to wrestle in the sheets. I'm not saying to have a one-night stand either but whatever tickles your fancy. Americans have too many rules. Just follow your heart, gut, and mind and do what you want. As long as everyone is an adult, not drugged and use protection. Its all good. ;-)

Interesting observation

Since I've been dating, I've noticed that most white men refer to their penis as "cock" and black men refer to theirs as "dick".  Just an observation lol

Stop looking helps

I'm having a good time with just dating. I'm not looking as much right now. Dates just happens. I realize that when I look for a date or SD it doesnt happen. So to avoid being frustrated I continue to go to work, work out and have fun with my friends.

The good news is...the dry spell is OVER."Yay!". This guy is just a new guy friend I met. Not looking for anything else from him besides sex and conversation. But I am seeing a couple of other guys. I'm just enjoying the ride :-)

So far so good

I've been dating a lot. There are moments where the dating scene is a bit slow but right now its going well. I have a date tonight actually. I'm looking forward to it. Unfortunately, the date wont be long because my girlfriends and I have a prior engagement. But I'm ready for tonight :-)

Eh...!

The SA party was ok. I may not go to the next one. As I predicted I didnt talk to any guys. I didn't want to approach any because I don't like rejection and I feel if a guy wants you, he would approach you. I had a decent time nonetheless. I met a few girls and we spent the night chatting, dancing, and drinking. So the night wasnt totally a bust. The should've picked a better venue because Hudson Terrace was "ok". And they should have offered at least a complimentary drink. It's just ridiculous.

I'm going to the SA party...again.

I woke up to an email on my Blackberry that SA is going to have a party today. I wasn't sure if I was going to go to another party like this again bc the first one was a total bore but something is telling me to go.
I am expecting to not meet anyone good looking and/or with a good personality. That's how my luck has been so far...so hey. I am just going to go to have a good time. That's it. I'm going to dress to the nines, per usual, and have fun. For those who are going, see you there.

I'm DONE!!!

I'm done searching for SDs. It's a little harder than I thought. Men play a lot of games and I'm bowing out. No more! I'm just going to meet men the old fashion way and meet them at grocery stores, church, sports events etc. I'm just going to concentrate on me and things will fall into place. I'm done searching.

What I've Learned

What I've learned within the last year is if I'm not happy or satisfied, then somethings wrong. I will be damned if I'm going to compromise that for anyone.

That's all.

SMH

Unfortunately its the same song and dance. I'm still (sexually) frustrated. Luckily I have a job to keep me busy. The SD search sucks balls too. I dont know what to do. I get emails but nothing. I'll email these guys back then we'll meet and have good conversation. I am often complimented and stared at lol. These men are excited about our friendship/relationship, then our date ends. I get home thinking about the date and hope something great happens from it but days will go by...no email/no call. Hmmm...what's going on? If the date went well, then what happened to the second date? I have no clue what's going on and I honestly don't have the time to figure it out. Men are weird...seriously.

Yes... It's still a NO!

Ok, so I had my second date with "Doc" aka the old man and he was hoping that he would change my mind about being his "girlfriend" but the answer was still the same. He has a nice personality but I really can't see myself at all with him. Ewww! I wouldnt kiss him with my worse enemies lips. He's so not attractive. Sorry I dont mean to sound harsh but its the honest truth. All in all he says he really enjoys my company and I think we are going to keep in touch. In the meantime, I'm still on a mission of looking for an SD. Wish me luck!

P.S.- Looking for an SD is tough. I've met a few guys here and there but nothing materialized. I'm patient for the right one.

Lord, what have I done...

to deserve this. I had my lunch date yesterday and OMG!!! I now realize men lie on their ads. This physician aka "Doc" was old as hell and he didn't look like he described. He said he was in his 50s. No effing way. He looked like he was pushing 70. Then he was really short, sported a toupee, and was not as "physically fit" as he said he was. He's in la la land. He has a nice personality but throughout lunch I just kept thinking to myself, "I cant do this." I can't see myself even kissing him on the cheek let alone having sex with him.
Oh, what have I done to deserve this Lord? Why me? Omg! And this guy also told me he has stamina. Ewww. No, no, no. He text me after lunch asking to see me again and I told him basically how I felt but in a nice way. Will keep you posted but there's no way I'm going to have sex with him. I don't care if he buys me a Rolex watch, Chanel bag, and a car. No SEX. Well, maybe a kiss. LOL

So busy

I have been really busy lately but I'm fine. I have a date set up this week and trying not to think too much of it. According to him, he's a successful physician and is looking for a nice girl to respect his privacy etc. He's very mature in age but its ok. I just hope he looks good. He saw my pic and really liked what he saw. I'm just going to have low expectations and see where it goes. I'm tired of playing games so will take things one day at a time.

FYI: I had more luck meeting men on non-SD sites.

Missed Opportunity

I am so upset that I didnt buy the Alexander Wang Lara combat boots when I had the chance. When they came out I couldnt afford them but still should have charged it on my credit card. Ugh, they look so HOT!!!

(girl on right is wearing them)

Now they are hard to find. Oh, please if there is a GOD, please have these shoes, in my size, on my front door step.




Or at least have them on sale somewhere. I contacted Alexander Wang customer service and they said I should try Ebay. Welp, no luck there either. It's ok. :-(

Ok, dont get it

I don't understand some men. If you're not willing to meet me where I am or at least halfway, then I'm not interested. Why should I waste my time traveling more than 30 minutes to see you? Sorry. When you gain a brain cell and realize I'm worth the trip then call me. Thanks :-)

Not sure what to do

I am thinking about getting rid of "Genius". I want to get rid of him because the relationship is not "mutually beneficial". He's enjoying me but I'm not enjoying him. He emailed me last night saying how he was thinking about me and enjoyed... but I didnt respond. I'm kind of tired of not benefiting from this "arrangement". He's self employed but with the economy his clients are filing bankruptcy so funds are tight for him. No problem, sh** happens. Even though I'm not really looking for a SD/SB relationship with him I'd rather for him to satisfy me in bed.


We haven't have sex yet but the foreplay/fooling around is not good. I would go in detail but dont want to remind myself of the details. All in all, I will talk to him eventually but this time I'm going to be firm and speak my mind and yet be considerate of his feelings. I enjoy his company but I can't be the one making him "explode" all the time and after you leave I have to pull out Mr. Vibey. That sucks.

Thank You!

Thank you to my new followers. Even though there not many of you I really appreciate the support. I hope you enjoy my blog and there are more followers to come :-).

I hope he knows the deal

Ok, so I met a pot SD yesterday in NYC. We met at the UWS and he looked like his pic (which was good). He's kinda cute lol. He's of Italian decent but is not really Italian because he wasn't born there nor speaks the language. He was wearing a business suit and just got off from work.  We were walking through Central Park and had a great conversation about our hobbies, ourselves, etc. It was nice. Then I walked with him to his apartment because he had to get ready for dinner w/ friends so I figured why not.

He lives in a really nice apartment building in a great neighborhood in the UWS. He has a nice, cozy apartment with a great view. I was impressed. The building had all the amenities you can ask for. I can tell he really likes me. He was all over me. He said he likes my look, my body, my smile etc. He said he definitely wants to see me again. We shall see. But for some reason I think he wants a relationship. Idk I just get this feeling. Since we met on an SD site I really want to find an SD. Only time will tell.  Will keep you posted.

Why Cry Over Spilled Milk?

I'm a little upset with "Genius". He cancelled our date for today. He was held up because of business. However, he wants to see me tomorrow but I told him, "No, I have plans". I'm not going to reschedule my plans for anyone anymore. I also have plans to see a "few good men" in the next few days so I really could care less about "Genius".  I'm going to keep moving forward. When "Genius" learns his lesson and emails me again, I may give him another chance.

Proof is in the (Chocolate) PUDDING

I am now convinced that some (if not most) white men are into black women. I have been on this AM site not even a week and I have over 200 email messages. About 150 of these messages I got after two days on the site. And 99% of the men are Caucasian. Now like I said before I have a taste for white men so I dont mind it at all but I'm sure these same men are married to white women. I mean its their preference. But are black women only good enough for sex? That is the question.

Ok, so far so good.

I'm going to meet my usual "friend" this week. He's kind of like an SD but not really. He's the one I mentioned before that had degrees out his a** and businesses. I'll call him "Genius". Well I say he is sorta an SD because I never came out my wallet for anything when I'm with him. He's really sweet and he's ambitious. I'm still working with him on getting gifts etc. I know he's going through some things with his clients so I'm just being patient. In the meantime, I enjoy having oral sex with him. Hey, I gotta get pleasure some way.
I also have an "appointment" with this guy I met on one of the dating sites. He's shown interest in me and he's cute also. The only thing is he's "attached" lol. Do I really care? Not really. He's married, I'm not. He's cute and I'm going to see him next week. If there's chemistry and since he's married, I'm going to convince him to pay for some "maintenance" fees for me. That's the least he can do. Once I meet him, I'll think of a nickname for him.
Oh, I almost forgot. I have a lunch date with another "attached" man this weekend. He kind of reminds me of Billy Crystal so that's what I'm gonna call him. He's ok in the looks department but if he's willing to spend some "green" on me then I'm sure he's going to look better :-).

Round 2

I think I'm going to "please" myself again tonight b4 going to bed. This will be the second time today. Huh? I'm horny as f*** and still no action. Everything happens at its right time I guess. In the meantime, ttyl. :-)

The Girlfriend Experience

I just finished watching the movie, "The Girlfriend Experience" and I liked it.


I saved it on my dvr so I could watch it again. The star, Sasha Grey, is beautiful. I looked her up and she's a pornstar. Can't believe it. I wish her luck in her endeavors.


I'm not sure if this movie is a great depiction of the life of an escort but its a good movie nonetheless.

The Nerve of these "MEN"

I put "Men" in quotation marks because there are a lot of men, especially most white men, who would love to f*** a black woman in the dark but seldom walk with them in the light. I am on a few dating sites now and I get most requests from married men looking for a "discreet encounter" but I dont get much single white men wanting to date me. The nerve of them. It takes a REAL MAN to date whomever he wants and is proud of his woman....whether she's black, white or green.

Gotta focus on ME

I'm going to get back to my yoga regime either tomorrow or Monday. I got to really focus. My scale is slowly creeping up and I refuse to go backwards in my weight loss. I'm not worried. I have some potential SDs in the very near future and I know I must beat the competition. I just hope everything works out. Wish me luck.

Yup, still awake

Still haven't slept but planning onto soon. Have been getting too many emails. I've been busy little bee. Now looking at a couple of raunchy videos then gonna pull out Dr. Feel Good lol. ttyl :-)

Plan averted

Was about to "hit the hay" til I got a message from one of my SD sites. This guy shows interests but idk. I don't get excited anymore. We'll see what happens. The other pot SD I met in Tribeca hasn't called back. He's probably not interested and honestly idk why. But he did seem a bit... i can't put my finger on it but he did have a beautiful condo. OMG! If he contacts me, then I'll give him a chance. If not then it probably wasnt meant to be.

Feeling tired and...

...about to use my vibrator so I can have a nice nap lol. I was almost done w/ online dating but so far things are looking up. I also joined AM and I have gotten a lot of emails of men wanting to meet me. That's good. They may not be SD material but at the end of the day, I just want to have sex. And it's so hard to find the right one to have sex with. OMG!!!! And yes, my married friend is very persistent with wanting to have sex with me. I'm flattered but I work with him. I don't want to mix business with pleasure. I'm gonna call him Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde because he's conflicted between wanting to have an extramarital affair and his religion. I'm not into confused men lol.  Anyways, he's cute and all but something is telling me not to mess with him. Anyways, Good Afternoon All. I am about to get busy and go to sleep :-).

Ok...I'm done.

I went out 2nite and it was a wash. I didnt have any fun and I'm very disappointed with the quality of women the men were going after. I was also appalled and disgusted by the quality of men the women were going after. Ummm....I think I'm done searching for men. I am a very beautiful girl, educated and very good in the bedroom but for some reason I can't find a man that can satisfy my needs. I'm just gonna focus on myself and see what happens. Ugh!!!!!

Should I or should I not?

I'm still debating on whether or not I should become a member of a couple of these SD sites. We'll see what happens after I attend the SD party in NYC next week. If everything goes well and I meet a few SDs then I wont. But if it's a slow night then I'll probably join. 

SSDD

I'm HORNY!!!!!!


The End

LOL

I think I can get used to this.

I am slowly morphing into a SB (sugar baby) and I kind of like it. I have been taking care of myself and I've noticed a lot of men, mostly white, have paid me a lot of attention. I met a man online and the same night (or shall I saw the very early morn) he wanted me to come over and meet him in NYC. He lives in a very trendy (and expensive) neighborhood in NYC.
At first I was a little apprehensive in meeting him because we barely chatted online but something in my gut just told me to "go for it". And I did. The night started off rough (rather not say but it's not what you think lol) and everything turned out well. He was really nice, handsome, and his condo was AMAZING!!! I felt good. We didn't discuss any "sugar" business but if he showed interest in getting to know me down the line, I would be happy to spend some time with him.
Anyways, he did pay for my car service to and from NYC, which was nice. Let's see what happens from here on out. Not sure if he's interested or not. Couldn't really read him. But if I have to bet on it I would say he is because he thought I was beautiful and he enjoyed my company. Well idk.  Will give him a nickname if he contacts me again.  Anyways, we'll keep you posted.

Yes, I'm BACK!!!!!

Oh gosh, sorry it's been a while since I've posted but I am happy to be back. Will you believe I deleted this blog a couple days ago because I didnt think I would have anything to talk about. I soon regretted my decision and feared that my blog was no more. But thanks to Blogger, I was able to "undelete" my blog. Hallelujah!!!
Anyways, not much changed since the last time I've updated but I'm happy to say that I have been dating. Yay!!! I'm still a "virgin" but I'm having fun nonetheless. For the past couple of months, I have dated a few men. Some duds and some potential suitors. We shall see. So far I'm "dating" two men. I say "dating" because one is married w/ children but really adores me. He loves talking to me because I listen and give him advice. I am his friend basically. But a friend that he likes to take out for drinks. We dont do much because we have conflicting work schedules but when we do have time to spend together, he really likes to take me out for dinner and drinks. He is cute but I dont know. He seems to be confused on a lot of things but we do have fun together so why spoil a good thing? We are sexually attracted to each other but I like how our relationship is going.
Another guy I'm seeing is a divorce man w/ children. He lives in an affluent town and "has money" so he says. I kind of believe him because he drives a Benz, owns a few businesses, and has degrees out his a** from an Ivy League university. However, I'm still waiting for him to contact me and say, "Lets go shopping!".
Am I looking for a SD? Yes! Why not? Since my previous, serious relationship didn't work out I vowed to not look for love anytime soon. I want to have fun. Use what you got to get what you want. Am I right? LOL!
Ok so will keep you posted.

It's been a while...

since I last posted anything on my blog. I'm sorry. Just been so busy. Unfortunately, nothing has changed. I'm still "Sleepless in the USA" but it's ok. The men that have shown interests are very promising. I've also decided to take some pole dancing classes. I've always wanted to pole dance and I hear its a great workout. I'm excited. Hopefully, one day, I can show my "skills" to a lucky guy (or two). :-)